Tipping Point

In Loving Memory

December 19, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I did not know it would hurt, this much.

To be honest, I did not even believe I would sense the pain, the tears that would follow. I did not really understand. Not that I don’t empathise, but I cannot fully grasp the loss. Because I am not in their shoes.

But I heard the weeping, saw the tears on the faces. and then I felt their grief. Together, we mourn their loss at the crematorium.

There is no limit/ expiry to grief if you ask me. I don’t think there is anything that can surmount the pain, and no one should tell them otherwise. They, who are left behind are the grieving ones. I do not see why they can’t continue to grief till the day they wake up and realize that pain has found a place to reside.

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, and in that, we find the will to live on.
R.I.P Uncle.

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Pictures & Updates!

June 21, 2009 · 2 Comments

I have been told my wordpress’ pretty much deserted, that is kinda true! Mainly because I have not much to blog about! Urps.

In short, I am lazy and also newly unemployed (Again?!) Not much to talk about, will update when I get a new job :)

Anyhow, shall post up pictures of the latest addition to our family! Very much loved and pampered princess, my little niece, who seems attracted to – of all cartoon characters - Hello Kitty. Omg.

Firstly, Rachelle (pronounced Ray shell) Lee @ one week old. All newborns look like boys har!

Side note: Yes, Rach, it does appear that my new-born niece has a name like yours :)

Page 1 - 1st week old

Affectionately called Mei Mei (that used to be my exclusive term in the family, happily usurped by the new princess!) @ two-three weeks old. Her looks has since changed; she looks more like a girl now :)

Page 2 - Early May

Lil’ Miss Sunshine @ four-six weeks old. First shave at one month old; a customary practice to ensure her hair grows smoother and more?

Page 3 - Mid MayPage 4 - End May

Baby Rachelle in the month of June. At two months old, she is awake more, and very hyper-active! She continues to get hiccups very often, and I get tickled whenever her eyes light up when she hears the spoon hitting against the milk bottle, which means Milktime!

Page 5 - June

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!

♥♥♥

Anyway, OB had their periodic OBtoberfest yesterday @ Prinsep’s Roomful of Blues. Jim promised a good ambience, drinking place and a charismatic singer to boot. First, the ambience was not that fantastic, the jamming band made it impossible to talk.

We decided to “SMS-MSN” with our handphones, and using unreadable sign language to talk to each other amidst the loud music, some classic phrases amongst others, 

“This is not the place for me, I can’t talk”

“I can’t shut myself up”

“Where do cute straight guys go to on Sat nights?”

“Do you promise a can of cute guys if we go there?” (“Can” being an abstract noun, you know, like a can of sardine, which means ALOT, haha!)

“This is the place for nerds to pretend to be happening” (Just kidding!)

The drinks were ok, I mean, how can you go wrong with a pint of Hoegaarden or Asahi, or Colada, or that flaming shot of Baileys (can’t remember the name!)

The “charismatic Gilbert” finally came at 11pm, and Jim happily told us we can dedicate songs and he will belt it out for us. He sang for close to 15 minutes? And went for a 45 minutes break. 

I’m Yours never came, neither did Love, Me or any Three Doors Down numbers. Charismatic he was but not singing ANY of our dedications was a big boo boo. We are selfish consumers.

We left after a few rounds of dice and Dai Di.

We decided to go to a more “happening” place, and decided on any Karaoke pub along Boat Quay because the K places would be too pricey and Mabel enjoys showing off in public, HAHA. But not before I embarrass myself in the cab and Mabel gets her stomach filled at Shah Alam.

As we walk down the stretch of Karaoke pubs, I can’t help but cringe and look back at Archipelego Brewery. I whispered to Yanling, “I think this is now too happening for us. I am old and don’t fit in here anymore.  Archipelego is shouting out for me” – to which she let loose a very loud laughter!

We attempted a smokey Karaoke pub. Yanling remarked, “Even if there were any cute guys, you wouldn’t see any for the place is too smokey!” :p

We eventually chose this pub (didn’t get the name?) and stayed there till 530am, waiting for our dedications and drinking Chivas with free mixers. I drank only one glass throughout ’cause I was too bloated! We had a great time drinking, sitting around and talking about everything under the sun, took some pictures too; will upload it when I get hold of them!

Grreat company to boot :) Was yet another great OBtoberfest! ♥♥♥

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The 热带鱼 Theory

June 5, 2009 · Leave a Comment

眼前一片海洋
渔夫一把捞起来
满满的都是可爱的热带鱼
可是没有一个是

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Sabbatism

June 4, 2009 · 5 Comments

That’s what the phone calendar will read for a month on my new love (to replace the touch screen phone that won’t light up, which I have since traded in for SGD 50. But more on that later.)

You read it right, I am on a temp hiatus! Which means I prolly don’t have much to blog about, except I have finally gotten myself a new phone after a good 5 years! And while we are at that, it is NOT a Samsung anymore, it’s a pretty Nokia E71!

Fang kindly suggested they could reimburse my new phone to replace the old cranky as an early birthday gift which to me, was really timely because with a touch screen phone that doesn’t light up it is just like having a dumb bell pretending to be a phone. Totally irritating!

Anyway, thank you UG!! LOVE.

Also, in response to Ying’s pleas to update this forsaken ground, I reckon she must either be very bored at work, or simply miss me too much. Some quick updates. Yes friends, I have started my break 3 days earlier than planned because of the H1N1 flu scare. The story began with me meeting Sze Hui (SH) for lunch last Wed (and sharing a drink at that), and a nervy SMS sent to me on Thu late night. The SMS from Sze Hui informed that her colleague who recently came back from the States/Manila is one of the new confirmed swine flu case.

!!!

You cannot imagine how “lucky” I felt at that point; during the lunch, SH & I we were deliberating and weighing the probability of that particular colleague getting swine flu. And there, on Thu night, I received her SMS. If I am also this lucky with 4D.

Anyhow, this “newsflash” was duly reported to boss who in a matter of minutes told me to go home and have an early break (i.e, self-quarantine; I was on the bus to work!)

Fret not though, SH is “safe”, no fever, no cough, and no flu, so am I! This self-quarantine is solely an act of “public responsibility” on our end! No cause for worry :D

To kickstart this much-awaited (and earlier than planned) break, I have thrown myself in front of the TV & PC, catching up on many missed shows/ books, exploring my new love, constantly day dreaming about going to TW during this short break, and joining Twitter! Yes, I tweet now too!

And yes yes yes, I wanna jet off to Taiwan, alone, like now! I have almost everything ready, from passport, luggage, clothes, a holiday-hungry mind, to a phone with WIFI (so I can tweet at whim!), everything except the moolahs! :(

I have even mapped out which budget airline and which hotels to choose from for accomodation, what to do, where to visit, and how to not overspend! :( :(

To be honest, I have not sorted out any thoughts re work, been bogged down by the overflowing TW thoughts… Heh.

Anyhow, am gonna hit the pool before that, get some tanning done and hopefully a stronger mind! The pool is where I like to free my mind of warped thoughts and mindless thinking, so friends, call me out while I’m still in Sg (assuming I get to leave the country!)

We can meet at Luela, Ceylon Road or Florence Road! :D

Meanwhile, enjoy this clip, “白天不懂夜的黑” by 楊駿文 he’s one of my new found good vocals to watch out for!

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Beautiful

April 16, 2009 · Leave a Comment

You can depend
On certainty
Count it out and weigh it up again
You can be sure
You’ve reached the end
And still you don’t feel

You know about anything

Do you know you’re beautiful
Do you know you’re beautiful
Do you know you’re beautiful
You are, yes you are

You can ignore
What you’ve become
Take it out and see it die again
You can be here
For who’s a friend
And still you don’t feel

You know about anything

Do you know you’re beautiful
Do you know you’re beautiful
Do you know you’re beautiful
You are, yes you are

Innermost thoughts
Will be understood and
You can have all you need

Do you know you’re beautiful
Do you know you’re beautiful
Do you know you’re beautiful
You are, yes you are

(Beautiful, by Mandalay)

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Yeah, you are spot on if you notice I am pretty much still dwelling in the fun and satisfaction from Meng & Fang’s wedding!

Especially this particular song, because it  claimed its spot in all our memories when it popped up during the “iPod song selection” :) Sneaky lil’ fella who decided to make itself heard to all of us on a lazy Sunday afternoon……

P.S Today is Mummy’s birthday, and Lil’ Miss Sunshine may pop any moment within the next 48 hours :) [We prefer 17th evening....17 being a common fave, and evening for a better life as an oxen. Hur hur.]

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Feel the Love :)

March 27, 2009 · 2 Comments

A Journey of Love | Meng & Fang’s Love Montage

I was, and am still very overwhelmed by the whole wedding affair. Like Geo, I am still pretty much ‘in the mood’,  exactly the way we felt when we were prepping for Meng & Fang’s Big Day!

It has been tiring no less, but very much enjoyable. I agree it has brought the UG girls even closer the past few weeks! Not to forget our new-found friends, dearest Carmen, Xinyin & Farhana, as well as the nice peeps who made it for the Surprise Video! (It’s really funny; even though I teared quite badly!)

To my happy couple, thank you for allowing us to share the joy and be part of the entire prep process; glad to have been there and helped out in any possible way we could! Gown-train-pulling is my now an expertise I can add under my portfolio!

We love you! Here’s wishing a blissful life ahead! And as cliche as the saying goes, Meng & Fang, we truly wish you a ‘Happily Ever After’, from the bottom of our hearts :D

We truly love the montage too! Absolute thumbs up to Ting (and her 1GB VAIO) who did up the montage with the very romantic ‘Beautiful’ by Mandalay, a song we stumbled upon thru her itunes while waiting for friends to film the surprise vid. The voicever recording was a tremendous experience too, we have never quite heard our voices in such clarity and umpteen playbacks, hah.

And the super hilarious slumber party the girls had; immense fun and a truckload of silly pictures! Even though some of us had to drag ourselves up for the shoot after meagre rest. It was definitely worthwhile though.

All in all, the wedding was a blast, especially amongst us sisters (and possibly the brothers)! Running around, playing the important music, hosting the dinner, doubling as photographer and mic-holder, receptionists, sidekicks, all the while busy but still found time to cry when the couple was giving their speeches!

The haggling session was superb too! Waking up at 4am after a mere 2 hours’ rest, and travelling down to the bride’s “place” to prepare for the haggling session, aka The Big Sabo of the Boyfriends (and Xiongdis). Applying ‘Bombshell’ all over the arms/legs and regretting after realizing it was a warm day, camwhoring when the sun’s not even up yet, etc… Also worth mentioning is the brothers who were game enough, especially Alan the Banana Man. REACH ORGASM! Haha!!! Did I mention we striked 4D from the rented SLK? Lucky!

Many many wonderful moments captured on cameras too! Now, either Min or myself have to get ourselves married next since we have reached the limit of being ‘jie mei’ for 3 times! (But Geo got the bridal bouquet, urps.)

Ok now, good night world, I’m off to a night of wonderful dreams and revelry…….

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1st in 5: The Wedding Bells

February 19, 2009 · 3 Comments

My favourite girl friend is getting married! To my favourite guy friend!

First in UG! Whee!

Meng & Fang

Congratulations!

meng & fang 2

Meng & Fang ♥

meng & fang 3

Happy couple :)

We wish you guys nothing but the best. Ever bliss and nothing else.

P.S: I changed my mind, keep your promise and find me a good man :p

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Adaptability

February 2, 2009 · Leave a Comment

I read that oxens possess some very good character traits, including the likes of dependability, strength and determination, all of which I recently realize I possess alot of.

One trait most websites/magazines do not mention of is adaptability. It would sound more like an oxymoron here, but as much as we are uncomfortable to change, we adapt. And almost effortlessly at that.

In my recent situations especially. Whatever dignity, pride, ego issues are easily thrown to the back of my head when “It” is concerned.

You can hurl verbal abuses at me, you can mock at the state I am in, but please do not attack my loved ones. Just because we are indebted does not give you any reason nor justify your acts of abase. I do not concur that we should be subjected to any form of different treatment.

Whatever help you rendered to us today, we will try as far as we can to repay you doubly. Just so we don’t owe you anything more.

Thinking back, who is  more indebted to the other?

Perhaps the day we repay you fully would also be the day we stop contacting each other. Because this is the current conclusion I have drawn from our talks.

That’s fine with me though. I think I have figured out what I ought to have known years back.

Indeed, this is a ”timely” and cruel realization.

Ugly mankind. Ironically, the one thing that caused so many problems was that one thing that taught me a great deal.

Who said kinship is indestructible? The “M” word is such a powerful tool it destroys everything just like a horrendous 9.6 (on Richter scale) earthquake.

You know, it’s not your fault. It’s ours. We ought to have known better. We ought to have sought a different method.

But it’s OK, I adapt well. I adapt to all your antics and fury moments. I adapt to putting away my ego and lowering myself. I adapt to swallowing all rants about unfairness in life. I adapt to lamenting about how we could have had a better life. I adapt even to having someone bite my head off and pushing back my tears so the people I care about don’t worry about me.

I adapt. I adapt to locking up my entries so people stop questioning me about my insinuations and emotions. I adapt to posting up this entry so concerned parties can have a quick summary of all that I wanted to say once and for all.

I adapt. I adapt to regularly brainwash myself that I adapt well.

I adapt.

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